Updated: Apr 6, 2021
My BABY is 5 - and it's kind of a big deal. At the time she was born I had already been building my photography career for almost 2 years. When baby came home, I had 3 kids, 5 and under with a full calendar ahead of shooting, editing, creating, connecting, and running a full fledged photography business. I honestly thought that I would work hard and hustle for the first couple of years of her life, and then eventually I'd be able to take time to breathe and enjoy everything "properly". I figured at some point it would all have to balance out.
Honestly - nothing has slowed down since and instead things keep getting wilder. Life as a expansive entrepreneur, small business owner, supportive wife, and a full time mom of young ones is literal chaos. The kind of chaos that forces you to find yourself, and stand your ground while the world swirls around you and you never seem to catch up. The kind of chaos that makes you strong and challenges you to know who you are, what you want, and where you're going. The kind of chaos that can be good to you when you stop trying to make it into something else, and instead invite it to show you more of what's possible. It's the stuff that "Go big or Go home" is made of. It's never settling and ever-changing. It's learning to go wherever life takes you, and savouring the sweet moments along the way. I am grateful to have all of my babies home alongside me for as long as I have. To watch, teach, and guide them as they grow into their beautiful selves. It hasn't been easy, I've questioned my sanity and I've failed many times in all areas. I've taken on more than I should have, been left without choices, I've burnt out over and over again. I've learned some hard lessons, and the beauty of silver linings. I've learned how to stand up for what's right even when it's painful, I've said no, said enough, honoured my worth, placed boundaries, and disappointed others along the way. I've been through a lot in the last 5 years - but I've never given up and I've never settled for less than magic. I'm grateful for Lightwork Empire and for how far this dream has come. I'm thankful to those who have given me space to grow, and trusted in my vision - staying with me along the way. I'm grateful for this business, and how it supports my family through good times and bad. I am grateful for the strength, power, and wisdom that I never would have had if I didn't take it all on. I'm grateful for the beauty in the chaos and all it has given me. For all the possibilities it has shown me. For all the magic I never knew I was capable of. My baby has grown so much over the past 5 years.
And so have I.
We may not be slowing down anytime soon with the expansion of Lightwork Empire and the creation of Rebel Rewilding... but instead of fighting the chaos and hoping for eventual relief - I've learned to breathe and trust in myself and my higher power to find the balance within. I'm not waiting for tomorrow - I'm finding joy and bringing peace to the chaos today. 5 years has slipped by in the blink of an eye. For the next 5 - I'm intentional, awake and inspired.
Let's see what else we can create!